Adolescent Beauty

Today I was chatting with someone I will call Beth. Beth has a dream. I won't give the details right now, in fact I will change a few to protect her. Let's just say her parents discovered the plans for her dream. And they are doing everything they can to ruin it. Beyond that they are trying to make her feel guilty for even having it.

When she came online, I was nearly dead tired. I have not been sleeping well at all lately. I was working late into the night on the writing about Shevaun and Toby. Then I woke up early to try to call Canada about Adam. I told Beth I was nearly dead. She said, "Please don't go." So I said, "Okay. I will just stay here with you but not talk, ok?" She said yes. I set up the computer to beep if she typed, then tried to nod off into a half sleep. Just then, Sarah came online. I told Sarah I was dead. She asked why. I started explaining. Then I asked Beth if she wanted to say hi to Sarah. She has heard me talk about her, but they have never "met." She said sure. I invited Sarah into the conversation. Then I told Sarah a little more about Beth's situation.

What happened after that is one of the small moments that restores my faith in nature. The two gradually realized they had several things in common in terms of how their parents treated them. For the next few minutes Sarah and I were both there to give Beth emotional support. In almost no time, Beth went from crying to laughing. And I noticed that suddenly I wasn't tired anymore. Just watching this process and being so involved in helping Beth woke me up faster than a cup of coffee (which I don't often drink anyhow.)

Then I excused myself out of the convo but kept an eye on it from time to time. At one point when I looked in they were exchanging hugs. Then Beth wrote "love ya" and Sarah wrote back "love ya too." At the end of the convo Beth thanked Sarah and said, "if u ever need to talk to someone i'm here for ya" Then she sent Sarah her email address and Sarah said, "yeah, same for u too." Then Sarah wished her good luck and Beth returned the feeling.

This kind of thing brings tears to my eyes. I am starting to get used to it, but it is so beautiful that it still makes me cry.

Hannah is 14. She tried to overdose on pills earlier this year. Now she has created an online support group. Unless I am being fooled again, this is one incredible person. Here are her first two one of her first entries:

About the members

Hi my name is Hannah, I'm 14 years old and I created Hurting Inside. I've been having some problems in my life but I think everyone needs someone to talk to sometimes. If you want to join or just need someone to talk to then email me at ....@Hotmail.com.

As you can see there are not many members at the moment (erm...4) so please join. Want to know more about me...?

I have longish blonde hair (sometimes tipped with pink), green eyes and sticky out ears. I try and have my own unique style of clothes and I love tops with long, draping sleaves. I'm always chatting and I like listening to music, surfing the web and crystal healing (don't laugh). I'm a bit of a new- age veggie freak too :)

Want to Join?

This is a support group for teens on this site with problems to let them come for help and advice or to feel better. It was going to be a kind of depressing site where everyone made each other feel worse but whats the point in that? I don't want to make a diary that will trigger cutting or bullimia. This is now officialy a site to help people and that's what it's going to do. It's for people to stick together and work things out. It will be a place where you can post helplines and inpirational things. We CAN help each other and ourselfs. Whether you are being bullied, abused or are just feeling really depressed then just leave a note on the most recent entry with your email (or I'll give you mine if your worried) and I'll send you all the information you need to know.

"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. We listen to what you don't say"