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IP: 108.4.181.xx lovely
68.194.70.xx new person -- mindlessreject 15 usa from dedra
Dave is worried about a test
x says but you're so smart.
no im not, im a total idiot
you're definitely not an idiot
I'm sure you'll do fine Dave.
Robinhuntermoon: how do you get someone who is like overprotective to cut it out? my best friends always looking at my arms tryin to see if im doing anything stupid >.>
Raynahasiadel: I mean you could just hint to them that its bothering you.
Raynahasiadel: I mean I dont do anything to my arms, except for my scratching from anxitey, my cutting is my legs.
Raynahasiadel: Few friends know about it and some check on me, and I just normally ask them to stop, and say Im not doing anything
Finley12156: same. cept nobody's ever checked
Raynahasiadel: Yeah no one has checked me, but they've tried to ask me
Robinhuntermoon: like hes always bugging me and if im marked up he wont even look at my face hell just be examining the damage and it gets anoying.
Robinhuntermoon: idk hes a good kid but im a big girl >.>
Raynahasiadel: Yeah..
Finley12156: &&i don't think my dog likes michael
jackson. D:
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In another part rhm is talking about a book..
Finley12156: what was the book about?
: her being in an asylum sort of on accident and sort of for real it was a weird situation
finley says wow, then the next thing he says is...
Finley12156: I wanna put an album on now. :/
Finley12156: just not sure which one.
Finley12156: should it be AC/DC, the boomtown rats, or joan jett?
i could also try out my michael jackson album...
Finley12156: &i have the beegees too, but it's mostly their
darker songs.
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Dec 14 7 04 My mom has admitted to hating me... •• As well as my father saying he hates and doesnt love me. But... meh...
Finley12156: that sucks
then later anna said Robinhuntermoon: my rents did the same i just dont even care anymore
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Deadlybones: rayna there must be something
Raynahasiadel: Not really no
Deadlybones: what do u like to do
Raynahasiadel: Nothing
Xxrockbottomxx: doesn't will make you happy sometimes?
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rock bottom says don't always look at the negatives
then deadly bones says oh well try not to be pessimistic
Raynahasiadel: I feel like crying :/
Raynahasiadel: Fuck you too enotions
Deadlybones: its okay to cry
Xxrockbottomxx: i was bawling my eyes out earlier i felt like an idiot lol but it felt good afterwards xD
Raynahasiadel: I hate crying
Deadlybones: crying helps......
Raynahasiadel: Makes me feel stupid and weak
Deadlybones: i hate crying too
Deadlybones: only when u cry infront of people it makes u weak
Xxrockbottomxx: even then i don't think it does
Deadlybones: if u can hold the tears in until ur all alone ur
twice as stronger as then u were before
Raynahasiadel: I dont feel like that
Deadlybones: ur feelings is ur feelings...what makes both of u
happy???
Raynahasiadel: Nothing anymore
Raynahasiadel: Even when I was a kid I wasnt that happy
Xxrockbottomxx: umm when im with my friends
Xxrockbottomxx: usually
Xxrockbottomxx: they always make me laugh
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Xxrockbottomxx: ive been really depressed and cut my whole fricken arm up... my firend wants me to tel my dad and i know i need to but she is going to tell him if i don't by friday..
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Finley12156: that's a bunch of bull.
Finley12156: lie.
Deadlybones: well im sorry
then finley said nothing
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debating
Deadlybones: thats not fat == then she said there are tons of pple bigger than that
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Deadlybones: rayna why is ur weight fluxuating?
then more questions about how she is eating etc
Notes I left on 12 16 2010
Stevehein: just want to say its really nice how u guys are
helping each other. i feel touched when i see things like this
that someone said....
"shes cool. i am just not open about my feelings and stuff
so it doesn't help her to help me the only place i really feel
comfortable is like on here with you all.. idk face to face is
just scary" - I feel good to know that i created this place.
Thanks u guys for making it work. And satw, ur a great listener.
And xshyone, im sorry about how that cop treated u and the
school. America is a police state compared to most countries i
have been in. They like to spread the idea that its such a free
country, but its more the landda-da-propoganda than the land of
the free.
just want to say its really nice how u guys are helping each other. i feel touched when i see things like this...
shes cool. i am just not open about my feelings and stuff so it doesn't help her to help me the only place i really feel comfortable is like on here with you all.. idk face to face is just scary
Stevehein: I just saw something where someone said they lost a friend and said "I called her a total idiot". I feel sad to see that ... for several reasons.. 1 is someone else said they lost a friend recently and said they didnt care. but friendships are important, more important than grades - real friendships i mean. 2. i feel bad when pple lable each other. 3. i feel bad that students aren taught how to label their feelings and to not label other pple or situations (like saying "thats ridiculous") and students arent taught what it means to be emotionally literate.. see www.eqi.org/elit.htm - I'd feel better if pple who use this chat also spend a lot of time reading my site on how to express their feelings and how to listen. That is something else not taught in school... www.eqi.org/listen.htm If you read that page you will see most of your teachers and even counselors havent learned it, and especially not ur parents.
Something else they didn't teach me in school was how to apologize, feel compassion, feel empathy or how to forgive. I often say that a 12 year old taught me how to apologize when she used to say "It's okay best friend." Here is a list of other things they didn't teach me in school. http://www.eqi.org/educ3.htm
Stevehein: I also want to say that I would like this chat to be a place where people learn new things and share what they have learned from my website, kind of like a classroom, but a helpful one, not like a school one, besides just being a place where you get some emotional support. And I saw where you guys were talking about being threatened.. that is pretty much the basis of social control, starting in schools - threats, fear and punishment. along with rewards for doing what they want. See this article about rewards and dolphins in case u havent seen it... http://www.eqi.org/dolphins.htm Anyhow Im going back to bed. Thanks for helping and caring about each other.
they wanted me to do a group outside of the hospital, but then again they also wanted me to do some sort of therapy involving stuffed animals or w/e.
they didn't know what i needed or what i was capable of accomplishing..
stuffed animals?
yeah
forgot what it's called
ok then.... lol
it was because i had a hard time talking & expressing myself.
i'd been silent for too long, i guess.
yeah....