Date: Sunday, September 27, 2009, 1:59 AM
Steve,
I dont really know how to start this so i guess
i just will...
i used to cut myself and have been thinking about it
alot lately and i feel ashamed to think about it. i dont
know why im telling you this i was just looking up cutting and
i kept seeing a lot by you and people youve talked to and all
that
and i was wondering if maybe you could help me.
-Alone in my eyes
Oct 7
steve,
well where do i start...i was late to school and missed geometry
AGAIN...i can never get up in the morning lol.then when i got
home i got into a semi-fight with my mom because i didnt here her
calling me and she got mad. after that i fell asleep and woke up
to my brother throwing things at me and we fought, but then i
went to karate there(its like my second home) and i realized my
dad had my bag so i called him and asked him to bring it; he said
he would butu apparently he was drunk and lied to me, he also
lied to my mom and told her he brought it to me. the whole class
i didnt have my required shirt or belt and i was really
frustrated because he told me he would and didnt. i was so
frustrated and mad that i was almost crying and i was thinking
about cutting because i felt like a disappointment to my sensei
because i wasnt prepared and i was still mad over my dad not
getting there. i think i should give you some backround info
though, my dad is an alcoholic and he is depressed so yeah
alcohol isnt the best for him while hes taking his medication yet
he did it anyway. i dont get it hes seeing a couselor and
everything. hes in group he was sober for almost 2 months and
now...idk
amber