steve says:
can u explain more why u want them to hit u
steve says:
brb
Megan says:
physical pain is nothing for me, you know
Megan says:
when i did SI, i didn't just cut
Megan says:
i created friction burns with sharps
Megan says:
you know?
Megan says:
i would rub the sharps on me over and over again until i couldn't
even feel it anymore
Megan says:
and then i'd keep going just because
Megan says:
that'd probably usually hurt people really bad, right?
Megan says:
not just one cut w/ a sharp
Megan says:
over and over on the same spot
Megan says:
until i could actually smell it burning
Megan says:
sorry...
Megan says:
that's sort of graphic
Megan says:
the point is, i can handle physical pain
Megan says:
i suck w/ emotional pain
Megan says:
i dont even know when i'm hurting emotionally
Megan says:
i guess i just want them to hurt me physically... so i'll know
that i should be hurting emotionally
Megan says:
something like that
Megan says:
i dont know
Megan says:
its messed up