My mother has been punishing me my whole life and I am 31 years old. I keep going back to her hoping to have a good and loving relationship with her but this last time I reached out to her for help and support it ended with me going completely mad and breaking some things in her living room. So now I am the one who is a crazy psychopath. I am so broken down by her. When she is mad she tells me that she hates me, that I have been trouble to her since the day I was born, she wishes that I was never born, that I will be a bad mother and that I need to have an abortion, that I will abuse my child, she tells me in a voice mail (that I still have) that in her reports about me I am a sociopath, I am out of the will, and to call her Rhonda from now on. She also told me that she will make sure that I will never get to see my daughter that I gave up for adoption, who I had contact with up to the falling out about a month ago. She is very resourceful and has contact with the family that has my daughter. The family now will not take my calls. I am not even under the same roof with her and she still torments me. My mind cannot shut off her voice. I can't get a job because I am blowing job interviews because I can't get her and her words out of my head. I am so stressed about having this baby and turning out like her. When ever I see her number on my caller ID when she tries to call I get sick. There is so much more to this and I don't know what to do with it. I am going insane. I don't even know if you will get this.