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Convo with two teens who cut from Dec 2007.  They don't talk much about cutting here, but they talk a bit about eating problems. 
I don't want to call them "disorders" because i don't believe in the whole disorders  idea

steve says:

hey!

steve says:

un away ur self

Beth says:

hey!!

steve says:

ha ha

steve says:

that was fast

Beth says:

I'm always away

steve says:

ur good at unawaying

steve says:

i just sent u a mail

Beth says:

yeah, I just read it.

steve says:

lets see how smart u really are

steve says:

tell me how far u get before u get stuck!

Beth says:

okay.

steve says:

im gonna unblock Chris so i can talk to her too. she is very demanding so if im slow, thats why

Beth says:

okay.

steve says:

ok hows it coming?

steve says:

too much silence...

Beth says:

sorry.

steve says:

lol

Beth says:

I'm a bad multi-tasker sometimes...

Beth says:

hey, I'll be back in a bit. dinner. humph.

steve says:

k i might be in bed! if so ill ttyl

Beth says:

okay. well, if so, sleep well.

steve says:

did u get front page to open tho?

Beth says:

yeah.

steve says:

and the file to open in it?

Beth says:

sí.

steve says:

ok!

steve says:

u can play with it later then

steve says:

and another day ill help u if u want or need it

steve says:

but its easy.

Beth says:

steve says:

if u want, change something and send it back to me, or make a new one.

Beth says:

okay.

steve says:

anyhow il will let u go

Beth says:

adiós amigo.

steve says:

Beth says:

steve says:

ciao

Beth says:

hey, look, you're still on!

Beth says:

*gasp*

steve says:

yep

Beth says:

where are you that it is so late?

steve says:

what did u do, have one glass of milk?

steve says:

turkey

Beth says:

ah, I see.

steve says:

lol

Beth says:

I eat quickly because I have better things to do.

steve says:

ha ha

steve says:

do u ever talk to chris?

Beth says:

actually, I do not. I haven't been on for quite some time.

steve says:

u want to say hi to her?

steve says:

i havent told her im talking to u!

Beth says:

chris-- I wish I could remember her. I'm terrible.

steve says:

lol

steve says:

her situation is so sad

steve says:

they make her go to this place for a week or two at a time where they totally control her

steve says:

and call it a treatment center

Beth says:

:-[

steve says:

a bat?

Beth says:

haha, sorry. I'm not actually using MSN messenger...

steve says:

so can i tell her im talking to u?

steve says:

she said she doesnt remember u

steve says:

maybe u two havent talked

steve says:

she just turned 15

steve says:

has had ed issues too

Beth says:

I don't know, I remember her name.

Beth says:

I remember talking to her once perhaps.

steve says:

wanna try again?

steve says:

lol

steve says:

im hinting

steve says:

ha ha

Beth says:

sure, yeah.

steve says:

id appreciate it if u did

steve says:

let me see if i can invite her

Beth says:

okay.

Chris- has been added to the conversation.

steve says:

u there smart ass?

steve says:

i mean chris not beth

Chris - says:

haha

steve says:

lol

steve says:

its hard to distinguish

steve says:

i guess she is!

Beth says:

haha, I recognize your e-mail address Chris.

steve says:

ok Chris tell Beth what ur "treatment center" is like

Chris - says:

hell.

steve says:

and about ur eating disorder stuff

Chris - says:

ED=shit.

steve says:

Beth kind of went thru that also

Chris - says:

ED= fucked up doctors

steve says:

watch ur mouth. beth is a good girl

Chris - says:

sorry.

steve says:

lol

Beth says:

hey, I take no offense to it.

Beth says:

I just... don't use it.

steve says:

do uever swear Beth??

Beth says:

no.

steve says:

why the hell not

steve says:

lol

Beth says:

it doesn't come naturally to me.

Chris - says:

never did to me either... lol.. I learned it.

Chris says:

steve says:

lol

steve says:

ok anyhow i will let u two talk. im gonna go downstairs for a bit ok?

Beth says:

okay, have fun.

Chris - says:

yup, sure.

steve says:

k brb

steve says:

hug and cb

Beth says:

what kind of ED do you have?

Chris - says:

doctors told me i have both.

Chris - says:

i dont know how that is possible

Beth says:

bulimia and anorexia?

Chris - says:

i just got diagnosed today.

Chris - says:

yes

Beth says:

oh, sounds like you have some smart doctors.

Chris - says:

i know

Chris - says:

veryyy smart.

Beth says:

I believe there is an actual name for it...

Chris - says:

i dont know the name

Beth says:

me neither!

Beth says:

why did they say it was both? what do you do?

Chris - says:

i dont eat.. and the times i do to make it less obvious i make myself sick.

Beth says:

then that is only anorexia nervosa.

Beth - says:

well i think the whole make myself sick thing they are generalizing as bumilia as well.

Chris - says:

meh.

Chris - says:

i dont know.

Beth says:

yeah, that's what I got as well.

Chris - says:

*hug*

Beth says:

oh, I'm sorry. that was misleading. I am ED free now. That was how I was interpreting, I mean.

Beth says:

I was anorexic for awhile, but for the majority of the time, I was bulimic

Chris - says:

oh... well.. *hug* anyway.

Chris - says:

that must of been hard.

Beth says:

*shrugs*

Beth says:

do you know why you do it?

Chris - says:

control, hate the way i look, not hungry.

Beth says:

do other people control your life?

Chris - says:

yes.

Chris - says:

they control everything.

Chris - says:

i dont even get to choose what i want to eat for dinner.

Chris - says:

like they make a meal at the treatment center and i have to eat what they make

Chris - says:

or just refuse to eat.

Beth says:

oh sheesh.

Chris - says:

yea.

Chris - says:

its really tough.

Beth says:

is that supposed to help you get better?

Chris - says:

supposidly.

Chris - says:

hey, by the way, how old are you and where are you from?

Beth says:

I am 16 and live in ____.

Chris - says:

nice

Chris - says:

I'm 15 and live in _____

Beth says:

Chris the _____. I think I can remember that.

Chris - says:

lol

steve says:

try Chris the smart ass

Chris - says:

shut it.

Beth says:

*rolls eyes*

steve says:

oh im back

Chris - says:

relaly

Chris - says:

8-)

steve says:

ha ha

Chris - says:

really*

steve says:

i was just reading a bit

steve says:

learning about teens and their feelings and stomachs

Beth says:

interesting...

Chris - says:

very

Chris - says:

lol

Chris - says:

*nudges Beth and rolls her eyes at steve*

Beth says:

*laughs*

Chris - says:

*whispers to Beth * "steve sucks"

steve says:

lol

steve says:

ur not a good whisperer

Chris - says:

hehe

Beth says:

don't you love the internet?

steve says:

lol

steve says:

Beth can u tell Chris about what u wrote me about

steve says:

and i dont mean Dave

steve says:

or is it ok if she asks?

steve says:

i told her to ask u and shes not being very obedient

steve says:

shes not complying

Beth says:

go her!

steve says:

or cooperating

Chris - says:

i don't want to be rude.

Beth says:

I mean...

steve says:

so i guess i need to taser her

Chris - says:

yea

Chris - says:

taser me to death.

Beth says:

*rolls eyes*

Chris - says:

that poor guy from Poland.

steve says:

yeah

steve says:

and the student in florida

steve says:

at the kerry speech

steve says:

he didnt die but it was so fucked up

Chris - says:

its messed up.

Chris - says:

really.

Beth says:

amen.

steve says:

he will be traumatized psychologically for life

Chris - says:

lol

Chris - says:

nice touch Beth.

Chris - says:

steve says:

shes very religious

steve says:

lol

Beth says:

*sighs*

Chris - says:

so?